Or, things that have been slowly buried in the crevices of your memory, as hard to unravel as twisted coral, suddenly float to the surface.
That's what the past few days have been for me; a violent yet gentle wrenching of the old into a new unknown, with unforeseen possibilities and, I'm sure, still unknown challenges and fears.
I had the chance to go (for free! my bank account rejoiced) to a conference for Christian artists this past Friday, and it was so refreshing. I sat in a pew and listened to how the world and the church needs the artists, writers, musicians, actors, etc. because theology is far too grand to just let theologians have at it. (and I felt they did this while still granting theologians and intellectuals deep respect and purpose) I don't want to describe the talks and sessions and worship too much, because I don't trust myself to articulately justify what the conference did for me.
But I felt strongly that--- I was with my PEOPLE! the lovely crazy right-brained people who try to become vulnerable enough and crazy enough to create.
And while sometimes it feels as if there's so many cross-currents of my life, this stream was wide enough to encompass all that I hope God does with me. And Madeleine L'Engle always could put her finger on it, and Rob Bell does, too, in "Drops Like Stars."
The creative masterpiece of living--the irrevocable marriage of creativity and suffering--how Van Gogh said once, "the more I think about it, there is nothing more artistic than loving people."
I can't say it without bordering into cheesiness and I loathe when important things are spoiled with cheesiness.
So on to the next thing that further put the world on its end-- the Wall! There is a prayer and worship movement starting here in the Springs. It's in the same vein as IHOP in Kansas City, and is housed in the Jericho Center, the international hq of Dick Eastman's ministry of evangelism and intercession. There is a vision for these houses of prayer to cover the globe, and Mike Bickle's (IHOP guy) vision is to be able to hire thousands of singers to worship full-time--paid--like David did.
They are looking for more musicians (it was funny, they kept calling it: musicians and singers, which would have driven Pat Edwards, a voice teacher, mad. Singers are musicians too! Singers and instrumentalists!) to do intercessory worship. Right now, it's M-F, 6-6pm, with live worship form 8-4pm. And I feel like I've got to do it...I so want to be part of it.
So I'm trusting God for it; hopefully, they'll contact me (they have my info), and I'll be able to do it for a couple days a week at least. It's just tricky financially, because unless I get 20 or 30 more private students, I'll have to sub at least 3 times a week as well as teach. But with my schedule now, I could do this for a time, and then teach my normal afternoon students.
ANYhow. it's just exciting, because especially as this worship and intercession movement grows around the world, it's something that you could give your life to. Imagine international worship ministry... it would be incredible.
A closing rather-unrelated note: I LOVE private teaching. Absolutely love it. Voice and piano--the lessons are so different, but I love teaching both instrument. And getting to know kids one on one and just hanging out with them and watching them grow musically...it's delightful. I would be so blessed if I could do this and worship full-time. We'll see...God, please somehow take care of the money.